Unspoken rule.

I switched off on the 2nd half of the ESAP lecture. I think I'll write this to keep things in check first before continuing with my revision. I've already picked out the topics I like, which I'd like to do if it comes out in the main paper on 18th May. They are as follows:

1) Attitudes and behaviour
2) Majority and minority influence
3) Fundamental attribution error
4) Covariation theory by Kelly
5) Deception is social psychological research
6) Social loafing
7) Prosocial behaviour
8) Some others which I'll add on later.

Today, is the graduation ceremony for the SIM-UOL 2011 batch. So it means, if I graduate this year, the ceremony would most probably in April next year. 3 more papers to go. Honours is more or less stable, but I'll have to get at least one 2nd lower honours mark to seal it.

I know I'll sort of miss lessons when it ends. Today is the second last lecture for Elements of applied and social psychology. But by graduating, I can then chase another goal, to gain financial independence. Before my trip last week, I went to my dad. I said 'I do not have enough money, could you give me some?', he said 'how much' and I said '60 bucks'. He searched around his wallet and passed me 100bucks which, he refused to keep the change. This simple gesture made me feel touched and this is the kind of understanding I need very much this period. I'm having exams, loaded with stress, and draining from my savings. I thought I could finally have some surplus of cash. It wasn't very much, but I appreciate the gesture very much. Because one thing about me, I really dread asking for money. I dread it very, very much. And it's such an annoying thing that this topic is coming back again and again for years. It's stressful and stress is defined as the psychological arousal that arises when one has insufficient resources to deal with the threats/demands encountered. Yes, that's the stress. Maybe I'm those who needs unspoken understanding. I always understand money may be a sensitive issue, that's why I do not like to sweat the cents and a few dollars. Money is important to me for sustaining a comfortable lifestyle, but not the utmost importance in my life. We're middle incomed, perfectly alright (but my parents always think otherwise). But, I would like to gain that financial independence. Very much.

I'd also like to make a point that parents should be trusting enough to trust that the kids have the ability to provide,etc after they have a stable job. If not, it's really causing stress to the kid on top of their academic issues. :'( They provide us with food, shelter, and the so expensive education, why wouldn't the kid do the least? It's not only a reciprocal norm, it's a form of respect and appreciation. I don't know about the majority, but it's my unspoken rule. Must everything be so explicit and emphasized everytime? Maybe I don't know, I don't know how it feels if your savings are always seeping to your kids and education and stuff. I can't comprehend, at least for now.